above all: mainly, especially
a lost cause: a hopeless case, a person or situation having no hope of positive change
to turn down: to reduce in brightness or volume(S); to reject, to refuse(S)
to keep up with: to maintain the same speed or rate as
turn/go to mush
if your brains, heart etc turn to mush, you cannot think clearly or sensibly:
perverse (adj): behaving in an unreasonable way, especially by deliberately doing the opposite of what people want you to do:
— perversely adverb: